Solitude.

Sometimes I just wish I had time to be in solitude. I really just want to have a personal retreat; just me and God.

Lately I’ve felt so dry. Yesterday evening, I was in conversation with God; rather, I was just pouring out everything on my mind. Life’s become rather aimless and dreary since I lost Dad. I go from day to day, not really knowing what to expect, not really knowing what to look forward to. All I have are temporal events to look forward to. Rhema, Christmas, Watchnight. There’s nothing more.

It was then that I realised how far I’ve drifted. So far that I’ve lost meaning, drive, motivation. I just surrendered everything into God’s hands and asked that he take control, and take the wheel from my hands.

The words of the song ‘Majesty’ by Delirious? came to mind.

Your Grace has found me just as I am
Empty-handed but alive in Your hands

I knew, though I was feeling empty now, that I am safe in God’s grasp, and He’ll never let me go. Now, the journey to rediscovering my first love commences.

Solitude.

Taken with:
Canon EOS 30D
Sigma 10-20mm f/4-5.6 EX DC HSM IF

Waste.

I wasted two Super8R prints and two mounting boards trying to paste the two Super8R prints on the two mounting boards without any bends at the edges.

Super8R prints: $3/pc
Mounting boards: 3pcs from Joey

The cost of failure: priceless

There are some things money can’t buy, and I can’t get someone to mount them for me with MasterCard; not now anyways.

Not like it matters; my photography isn’t superduper amazing anyways.

Where Is The Love?

Where Is The Love?

Canon EOS 30D
Canon EF 50mm f/1.8 II

This was shot at my block’s void deck. This bike is one of at least half a dozen currently in a state of corroded disuse; the heart shape is faded from the ‘I (heart) my bike’ sticker on the bell. Where is the love, indeed. Heh.

Gone.

to Shanghai. hehe.

For Joey,

Gone.

In other news, please let me know you’ve dropped by, by tagging once in awhile. It could be a response to a post, or a random tag on the pseudo-tagboard (see page navigation over on the right). It helps me know who’s been here (and makes me wanna write more too).

YourMercy.

Your mercy found me
Upon the broken road
Lifted me from all my failure
Into Your Glory
My sin and shame dissolved
Now forever Yours I’ll stand.

– Where The Love Lasts Forever/Hillsong United.

Today’s QT was on Romans 8:28-39.

As I was reflecting on this week’s worship theme + today’s QT, this song happened to be playing on iTunes.

I realised that it is because of God’s mercy and love that we are even able to stand before God, and we are able to worship and praise Him.

In the Old Testament, if the High Priest entering the Holy of Holies was found to be unclean, he was struck dead. Today, we are spared from certain sudden death, because of God’s love, and we’re able to freely enter into God’s presence, conversing with him, and worshiping Him.

Please, friends and readers, do not take this opportunity for granted. It is a privilege we have been given, because of God’s great love.

You called me out of darkness and
Into Your glorious light
Forever I will sing of Your great love
Forever I will sing of Your great love

A response.

On Sept 23, 2007 at 8:51pm,

I received a comment:

Lux Says:

God makes all things well?
for a start,think about those 3rd world countries.You should spend your time helping the people there instead of praying and preparing for this gig.If all you can do is ask god for help,I don’t think u even deserve to be christian at all.

Lux,

Thanks for your comment.

God bless you brother/sister,
Caleb.

finally.

Finally, we have an update.

Lots of things have happened since the last time I updated. E-gig came and went. It was a great experience.

I learnt much. To be honest, the greatest effect on me was the high level of excellence. There was such stringent tolerance among the musicians; it was an amazing journey, ups and downs aside.

Then, I got DeviantArt. It was a kick-start, and I felt that my photography started improving drastically. My composition was challenged, my ideas were refreshed, and my digital darkroom technique was honed.

Many question the idea of using Photoshop to enhance your images. There is, of course, a fine line between manipulation and enhancing, but I still maintain the stand that the Digital Darkroom is still a significant part of the sequence, from the capturing of the photo to the final product, that ensures that the final product has that something ‘xtra.

Hey, renowned landscape photographer Ansel Adams had a darkroom too (he shot on medium and large format film though), and almost all his prints (actually, all his prints, unless I’m mistaken) were subject to a darkroom technique of burning and dodging we know as the Zone System.

Enough debate, on with the samples.

CameraFace.

 

Plugged In.

 

Much Mileage.

 

Glittering Turbulence.

 

Fiery Opening Act.

 

You can see the full gallery here.

Now for the most saddening news yet.

Joey is leaving.

I just don’t know what to say. After ORD-ing and E-gig, suddenly everything seemed like a blur, and he’s leaving, in precisely two weeks.

Sigh.